Dr. B’s coronavirus results

Maybe this internet quote explains why melatonin did not
do me good psychologically

“Neurocognitive and mental health impacts
Covid-19 also seems to affect the central nervous system, with potentially long-lasting consequences. In one study from China, more than a third of 214 people hospitalized with confirmed Covid-19 had neurological symptoms, including dizziness, headaches, impaired consciousness, vision, taste/smell impairment, and nerve pain while they were ill. These symptoms were more common in patients with severe cases, where the incidence increased to 46.5 percent. Another study in France found neurologic features in 58 of 64 critically ill Covid-19 patients”

I understand your situation JDP. I would just feel a lot better if you had a medical diagnosis. But our healthcare system is a joke. I personally just happen to have a really great family doctor. Most people don't.

Jdp710 wrote:Maybe this internet quote explains why melatonin did not
do me good psychologically

“Neurocognitive and mental health impacts
Covid-19 also seems to affect the central nervous system, with potentially long-lasting consequences. In one study from China, more than a third of 214 people hospitalized with confirmed Covid-19 had neurological symptoms, including dizziness, headaches, impaired consciousness, vision, taste/smell impairment, and nerve pain while they were ill. These symptoms were more common in patients with severe cases, where the incidence increased to 46.5 percent. Another study in France found neurologic features in 58 of 64 critically ill Covid-19 patients”

It is supposed to have neuroprotective effects in neurological disorders.
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/29498103/#:~:text=Melatonin%20is%20a%20neurohormone%20secreted%20from%20the%20pineal,its%20involvement%20in%20the%20pathophysiology%20of%20these%20diseases.

The side effects you experienced are said to be very rare, and short term (feelings of depression, dizziness, low blood pressure, or mild irritability or anxiety), and if you had stuck with it, your body and psyche may have adapted.

But of course, it is your call.

Shortly after my last post about a week ago, I got hit with a second wave of whatever I have.  Had extreme anxiety, agitation, worry and emotional turbulence. Couldn’t breath.  I knew I was dying.  Remember this second wave is what killed my mom.  I said my goodbyes, my will and put everything in order.

So I took melatonin for the emotion issue during day.  To calm myself for dying was my thought.  To make myself a zombie.  Ibuphrophen and tylenol for the pain.  Blood pressure had fallen to 108/68 pulse high at 90’s. Temperature 95.5 but sweating... cold sweat.  Blood pressure still low currently but others normalized.

It stopped about 12-24 hours later.  It looks like melatonin does something.  Been taking 12 mg per day. Last night while sleeping, heart hurt every 3 beats.  Angina, I guess.  Based on past experience with my mom, I should have died in a couple weeks as I mirrored her symptoms.  If I didn’t take melatonin I probably would have.  I should have died I thinkbut instinct told me take melatonin.

Read how melatonin helps stops the inflammation.

It’s been my opinion that if you get coronavirus or a second wave of it, must take medication immediately.  If you don’t take fast enough you’ll get very ill.  Prevention by taking ahead of time is probably best.  

Here is a quote saying must act within 6 days.  That the virus explodes on day 6.  I suspect many will get emotional agitation if your heart is involved.  

(NOTE: interview is 33 minutes long -- introduction = 2:35 minutes -- 1st question at 2:35 minutes -- most pertinent information is in first 11 minutes of interview)

July 1, 2020
https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=102&v=TFwjY0qe7ro&feature=emb_logo

Dr. Vladimir Zelenko, MD, Board Certified in Family Medicine (during an interview), discusses the protocol  he used to achieve a 99.3% [99.7%] survival rate for his COVID19 patients.

His three drug regimen, which is used for five days, and costs less than $20.00, is:
Hydrochloroquine  [acts like a biological "Gun"],
Zinc   [acts like a biological "Bullet"]
Zinc is the virus killer, and Hydrochloroquine is the mechanism to deliver the Zinc to the virus.
Think of Zinc as a Bullet, and Hydrochloroquine is a Gun.
"A Gun (Hydrochloroquine) without a Bullet (Zinc);  a Bullet (Zinc) without a Gun (Hydrochloroquine) is ineffective"
ZPAK
Dr. Zelenko urges America can continue to reopen and have maximum participation with the fallback of a very effective treatment regimen.

NOTES
Out of 2200 COVID-19 patients treated  in the doctor's office, Dr. Zelenko's three drug regimen had a 99.7% survival rate.
Only 2 of the 2200 COVID-19 patients died.
Three drug protocol Must be started in first five days of symptoms (waiting for test results can take too long),
Because the Virus explodes on sixth day at which time it becomes much more difficult to treat COVID-19

84% of the 2200 COVID-19 patients treated with Zelenko's three drug regimen did NOT need hospitalization (remained in outpatient care).
This means that for every 100,000 COVID-19 patients admitted to a hospital today NOT treated with Zelenko's three drug regimen, 84,000 (84%) of these 100,000 would NOT have needed admittance to a hospital if Zelenko's three drug regimen had been used during the first 5 days of symptoms.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=102&v=TFwjY0qe7ro&feature=emb_logo

Hope this helps

It sounds to me like you had a panic attack. In my experience these are usually rooted in some physical symptom that sets it off. The melatonin took the edge off. It has been used to treat anxiety. Just don't know how effective it is because the system is corrupt and they will never do an honest study on it's use for that.

I've had panic attacks over minor heart palpitations. My wife gets them if she feels nauseated because she is terrified of vomiting.

There is one other thing I am considering jdp. If one gets a simple cut on the hand it takes 9 months for the tissue to fully heal. Same amount of time it takes a woman to make a baby. The COVID I'm sure caused tissue damage. Tissue damage to many organs and systems. Tissue damage that will take 9 months to fully heal.

I once had a cold, sore throat and a cough. It took 9 months for this "tickle cough" to go away. For months my throat would "tickle" and send me into a coughing spasm. Looking back at it I think the original sore throat and cough damaged the tissue and it took time to fully heal.

You may get better yet JDP!

Zixcreator wrote:It sounds to me like you had a panic attack. In my experience these are usually rooted in some physical symptom that sets it off. The melatonin took the edge off. It has been used to treat anxiety. Just don't know how effective it is because the system is corrupt and they will never do an honest study on it's use for that.

I've had panic attacks over minor heart palpitations. My wife gets them if she feels nauseated because she is terrified of vomiting.

There is one other thing I am considering jdp. If one gets a simple cut on the hand it takes 9 months for the tissue to fully heal. Same amount of time it takes a woman to make a baby. The COVID I'm sure caused tissue damage. Tissue damage to many organs and systems. Tissue damage that will take 9 months to fully heal.

I once had a cold, sore throat and a cough. It took 9 months for this "tickle cough" to go away. For months my throat would "tickle" and send me into a coughing spasm. Looking back at it I think the original sore throat and cough damaged the tissue and it took time to fully heal.

You may get better yet JDP!

Do you have a pre existing health condition? It sounds a bit extreme for a cold to fully heal in 9 months.
I've had pretty bad colds/flu but the most it took to heal was probably two weeks, one of which was in the first days of 2016.

I got ill once this year around february, right after my girlfriend did. She was fine one day and the next day came down with high fever, and a bad cough. It took around 1.5-2 weeks for her to fully heal. She rested at her house for a whole week. In her younger years she also suffered pneumonia so she got pretty worried.
Few days after she healed I got sick. No fever, just minor cold symptoms and scratchy throat, which gave me the urge to dry cough. Went to the doctor, got an X ray, it was clean but he prescriped antibiotics anyway, in case whatever it was in my throat went to the lungs. I got better in a week and the cought went away before it fully developed. Maybe the antibiotics helped or maybe it went by itself.
Seeing how some people can get through corona with mild symptoms and that the virus was in circulation around january/february, I'm wondering If I got it.

No. Didn't take 9 months for the cold to go away. I was over it in a week. It took 9 months for the "tickle" cough to go away. I surmise that during the sore throat the tissue in my throat was damaged and this caused me to have a dry hacking cough that took about 9 months to go away. I wouldn't have it all the time. Only 2-3 times a day where I would go into these coughing spasms Sometimes I would cough until I had dry heaves.

The point I'm making....with jdp and having the COVID. It may take time for all the systems and organs affected to fully heal. That could be what he is experiencing. Even things like anxiety and heart issues could be a result of the damage from COVID. All those issues he is having may get better in time.

If you can trust their numbers the death rate from this thing is dropping off the books. Seeing more and more articles that this thing has mutated and is much less deadly. Some say it's because younger people are catching it now though.

I posted about a month ago that Italian doctors were saying that Covid is no longer a big deal.  I believe them.  I personally don’t think it will be in the future.  I would say to watch the air quality though.  If air becomes hazy, gets in your eyes and lungs where they burn, and it’s like this for weeks or months, there could be another real second wave of coronavirus that is dangerous.  Also, maybe beware of eating produce too.

It was interesting how I subconsciously took melatonin.  I’m sure I would be dead. That usually is a positive.  Used up one of my 9 lives that’s for sure.

I have two very expensive and accurate biofeedback devices.  Looking back, most of the people who have used it and taught how to use it are dead now.  Odd.  But it is accurate.  Scanned myself just now and says myocardiodystropy

Is a type of noninflammatory heart disease that affects the myocardium. It is characterized by cardiac pain that occurs in the morning and that cannot be stopped even with normal treatments of nitroglycerin, along with other occurrences of heart rhythm disturbances, dyspnea, and various types of heart failure

and rheumatic carditis.  

Obviously not from rheumatic fever as it can’t tell what pathogen caused it but previously said respiratoryinfection,  in other words some respiratory infection caused inflammation of the heart.  The left ventricle.  

I checked for panic attack and such and was very low on the list.  Those with heart problems or heart failure many have severe emotional agitation, worry, fear and such from the heart giving way.  

Also probable aortic stenosis and similar issues.  Narrowing of the aorta.  It is also saying cancer is starting but that is perfectly normal for someone in my position.  When immune system gets better, it removes any cancer.  Most people haveseveral bouts of minor cancer in life but the body removes it before becoming a big deal.

Have checked the machine against people who just had heart attacks, strokes, cancer as well as others online and it’s very accurate.  Another reason why I don’t bother with doctors.  

What I’ve found over the years is if you save someone’s life, they live longer but for some reason their passing and their final days get worse and worse.  The longer you kept them alive, the harder and possibly longer is their passing.  I’ve seen it so much in my life that I won’t bother extending my life in exchange for the final days of your life living very bad and/or a bad death.  

Almost as if because they lived longer, they eventually must pass away very bad or take a long time to pass which can be torture for someone.  

Because of witnessing this so much, I won’t bother extending my life.  I’d rather pass away easy instead.  Hard to explain.  Just my views.  Not to mention I believe in fate.  If it’s your time to go then it’s time.  

Either way, think I survived a second wave of whatever this is.  Coronavirus I guess.  The point of me posting and giving thumbs up to melatonin.  Both reoccurences were very bad.  They nearly killed me.  The second reoccurence was brought out by grief for me and the second reoccurence was brought out by pushing self out of bed to walk around for my mom that killed her.  Their may be a third reoccurence or not who knows but I think I passed through the second one now. I’ve read many with corona never recover. Butwho knows maybe I will. Hard to guess when symptoms and my biofeedback machine says my heart is very bad. It never use to be though.

Hope that makes sense.

Yea saw the news feeds out of Italy last month. They downplayed it. But what is happening now in the USA seems to confirm it. It seems to be weakening.

The melatonin. To clarify I'm saying you have health issues. Sounds cardiac. However in my experience whatever your problem may be it always gets better when we calm down. Everything! I'm suggesting that maybe the melatonin worked more on the anxiety than anything else.

Florida versus Ca.

IMO they are very similar states. Ca has twice the population. But they both have lots of beaches. Lots of places where people gather outside. Yet Florida is absolutely getting killed by new cases. Why?

The point is this lends credence to your theory that it is something they are purposely spreading. Perhaps from chem trails? Perhaps they are dosing FL with the mutated version. So it looks just like all the other viruses that became less deadly? Who knows?

Life versus death....I agree with you. There are many things that can happen to you worse than dying. Personally I don't want to live past 70. I would rather be dead than live to be old and watch my health being gradually taken from me. I agree with you.

I only have one problem. I am morally against killing myself. Perhaps I will take up an extremely dangerous hobby if I make it to 70? Get myself a motorcycle for the first time in my life? Drive across the country with it? LOL!

I don’t know about rest of the world but the US almost always does testing in one area or population while leaving another area or population alone.  This probably happened in California and other areas.  

The US and the rest of the world I believe strongly that they feel a little evil is good if it’s for the greater good.  In other words, it’s ok to release coronavirus if it helps in the long run.  



I use to think it was ideal to live long life and then be very healthy.  Like those 90 year olds you hear about.  Very healthy and they look 20 years younger.  I even met one almost 20 years ago and he left me wanting to be just like him.  

I was even against killing myself before the time came.  To die a natural death.  Or even starve/dehydrate self to death or hopefully meditate during the process like some do.  But not being able to breath is horrible.  It’s like you’re almost always in a panic.  Unable to sleep, agitated because of it.  I don’t know how people can do it for years.  Their whole life is gone.  I’ve only been like this off and on a short while.  Good news is all of this happens in waves so not like that 100% of time.

I’ve witnessed my cat be very uncomfortable for a 2 month period.  No eating or drinking much.  Then one day she got up layed on the ground stretched her back and arms and she passed in that stretched position.  My dog was very uncomfortable for a month or so. Couldn’t stand so I held her for her to relieve herself. Then last couple days she panted very heavy.  After couple days like that panting appears her heart stopped.  Heart couldn’t keep running a marathon.

Us humans have a harder time passing naturally for the most part.  Maybe we are too attached or maybe need to visualize or something.  

I’m losing weight at a rapid pace and face declining rapidly so that actually gives me comfort believe it or not. I’m taking selfies.  Difference from today to 2 weeks ago I look like I’m dying.  6 months ago, I looked normal.  2 weeks ago very sick but today, It’s comforting believe it or not.  I could make a recovery from this. I’ve helped others make a good recovery who were worse off but interestingly they all die a couple years later.  One of those weird things in life.  But that’s why I mentioned over a week ago, just don’t see how I could live a couple years longer. It’s ok though. Would actually be happy. Did everything I wanted, saw everything I wanted and helped as many as I could.

Anyway sorry for all the rambling just putting my thoughts out there.

You can vent all you want. I always find your posts interesting. Have you ever listened to Dr Jeffrey Long? He an oncologist that has chronicled thousands of near death experiences. His work is part of the evidence of why I believe we are headed to a better place. But I've had some personal experiences as well.

When your heart stops EEG's go to zero within seconds. Yet these people are revived and speak of the most vivid experiences. Sounds and music more rich and beautiful than they've ever heard before. Colors more beautiful that anything they've seen in life.

NDE's also follow typical patterns. Seeing a white light. Experiencing a life review.....where they see all the bad things they ever did and feel the pain they have inflicted.

If the brain was making these things up you would see brain wave activity on the EEG. The most logical explanation is that these things are coming to the person from the beyond.

How about asking your doctor for that new drug that America is hoarding for covid? Remdesivir...it's the only licensed drug for it.

Zixcreator wrote:No. Didn't take 9 months for the cold to go away. I was over it in a week. It took 9 months for the "tickle" cough to go away. I surmise that during the sore throat the tissue in my throat was damaged and this caused me to have a dry hacking cough that took about 9 months to go away. I wouldn't have it all the time. Only 2-3 times a day where I would go into these coughing spasms Sometimes I would cough until I had dry heaves.  

The point I'm making....with jdp and having the COVID. It may take time for all the systems and organs affected to fully heal. That could be what he is experiencing. Even things like anxiety and heart issues could be a result of the damage from COVID. All those issues he is having may get better in time.

Oh I see what you are saying now.
I had a pretty bad cold in the military(In Turkey it is mandatory) in 2010 and even after I healed, the occasional cough remained. And it took a few months, maybe 2-3 months for it to fully go away.

zixcreator,  

Yeah, you’re correct.  So much I could say but wouldn’t know where to start.  Time really isn’t the same.  And those on the other side are always preparing, always helping you ahead of time for the next fork in the road in your journey in life.  They know the direction you’re going and where you’re headed so they try to help along the way.  Prepare you.

Everything is more alive than anybody could imagine.  The colors and such.  It’s like a rainbow.  Not just over there but here.  Everything has a consciousness.



I use to research not just health but everything in life.  I found everything I was looking for and even the reason for why we are here.  The short answer is to find god and become one with him.  Like when you were a child and you loved your parents more than anything in the world.  You become just like them when you’re a child.  Same must happen but on higher and higher levels till you find god and want to become one with him.  Just as when you’re a child wanting to be just like your parents.  Then, when you find him, this earth school is over and onto the next school, in a sense, on a higher level.  They say most when they find god they die.  They run to him, then their body dies.  Some are trained to keep a small attachment to this world in their body so they don’t die and they come and tell us what the goal of life is and how to get to god.

It’s like the one’s who get this are PHD students, and the one’s who got their PHD are out of college so you hardly hear about the graduates.  Now the rest of the world, very few ever get that far in their schooling, let alone graduate with a phd. Some get to college, most high school but many stopped paying attention even before high school.  They just repeat what they hear but they never fully grasp what life should be about.

Notice for example Jesus’s disciples feared death.  But when their love was gone, when Jesus was killed, they got it.  They got how love is what’s important and they no longer feared death.  Same happens when a spouse dies or a parents child dies.  They get it.  They no longer fear death and see how important love is.  This love is even on a smaller level.  When you find god, you get an incredible amount of love.  All your pains and worry is gone.  There is no way to voice your displeasure to god they say. You’re just in awe and forget everything. And again when most find god they die.

Sadly, very few of the younger generations get this.  Few will talk about it and they are in a very dark place the younger generations.  You need a certain kind of counsciousness to get it.  Otherwise, everything is taken out of context.  I feel sorry for the younger generations.  They are in such a dark place.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=PpDE5i4-uio


This last video is probably too heavy for most everybody.  Note the last paragraph of the video.  https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=CKQa_RxlKCQ

When you “fully” grasp that last video, then the only thing keeping you alive is your cravings, longings and desires.  Sometimes one will crave one thing to keep them alive.  Years ago I should have died from other illnesses many times over.  There were at least two times I think I passed.  One time I was rushed to the hospital. I think the only desire I had was to help.  I no longer have any desire anymore and With my moms passing, the one I helped a great deal as she had a prior stroke, I think only thing keeping me alive is I’m forcing myself to eat and drink when I don’t want to but I’m losing a couple pounds of weight per week. Can’t help it.

They say most people die before they deplete the body of energy.  They die when their purpose is over of why they incarnated to begin with or die from certain preplanned event. Most in my family incarnate for a purpose and die.  I’m the last of the mohicans now.




Hope that all makes sense.  Probably a lot of crazy talk for many people.

Jdp, I have always appreciated your posts since I discovered this forum in 2010. I'm sorry to hear about your condition, but like others have posted we hope that you get better.

Thanks imprisoned-radical. I appreciate it.

I feel much the same way. My health is not as bad yet but nothing in life really thrills me anymore. For awhile I really enjoyed family and grand kids. I love them dearly but I'd rather be left alone. I still enjoy watching them play or interact but I am aloof from everyone more and more. There is nothing I really wish to do anymore. I did everything I really wanted. The regular stuff bores me. Like I did it all too much. How many times can you get excited about going to the grocery store or eating at Wendy's? I have no desire for anything material. I could walk through a mall and not see a darn thing I'd care to own. I don't care where I live. What clothes I wear. What car I drive. I have no desire to take a trip.

All the little things I would do in a day to keep things up I now have to force myself to do. Even eating is something I just do when I get hungry. Used to get excited about cooking or grilling. Camping, hiking, exercising. But no longer.

I would prefer more than anything the quiet times I sit on the porch at night and look out at the stars. Gradually...effortlessly....I feel myself slipping away into the next realm. I find I like to be alone more and more. Just don't care. Like everything seems so temporary. Nothing lasts in this life.

Some people say I am old for my age. Others say I am depressed. But I don't think I am. The battles of life have been fought. It is now time for peace. It feels very natural. Part of me looks forward to death. I'm not suicidal though.

My theory is that I have spent enough time disconnected from god or whatever you want to call it. I think my soul is lonely for what is coming next. To be with the consciousness of the universe. I suppose I feel that way because my purpose for being here has been completed. I'm not needed anymore. I did my job I guess.

Once you have no purpose it seems like you gradually slip into the next realm. Not sure if this is exactly how you feel but it sounds like it is.

Thinking about it, hair loss of all things was what initiated a new phase in life back in 2010. Many would say that it is so vain to be worried about something like hair loss, when everyday there are people - even young people - who are losing their lives from life-threatening illnesses or from unexpected accidents, etc. Or you could think about several generations ago, thousands of young men were dying senselessly in wars. Trying to find forgiveness now, I suppose it is somewhat forgivable for a young man who was 20 years old. The immediate concern was that I needed to find a partner before my hair loss became noticeable.

When the hair loss problem started, I blamed my mother. She had certainly been cruel to me when I was growing up, but my immense source of guilt now is that I blamed her too much. Almost as if I blamed her for 100% of the problem when, as with so many other unexpected problems in life, 50% or maybe even 75% of the blame was on me.

Furthermore, I made the mistake of becoming involved with weed when I was around 16, and did not have the sense to quit until I was 20. What is clear now is that the weed made things far worse. When the hair loss problem appeared when I was 20, I was mentally in a dazed, in-between state and even less prepared to deal with the various emotions.

The effect was that while perhaps my mother's failures as a parent might have put me in a 5-foot hole as I entered adulthood, I had dug myself into a 15-foot deep hole with the weed. From that 15-foot hole, needed to blame someone.

There is something sacred about the relationship with one's mother. The only time I have ever seen my dad cry in a very soul-wrenching way, was when he lost his mother. I have met several men now who were absolutely devastated by the loss of their mothers. There is one guy in my bible study group who lost his mother in 2016, and he mentions it almost every week. It is something unique to the mother-son relationship, as i have never really observed the same in mother-daughter relationships. The immensity of the sadness which I have observed in other men, and can also foresee in my future, is something that cuts to the soul and makes me afraid. Almost has an equalizing effect, where even a human being is just the same as all the other animals that God created which we believe are lower than us.

I turned 31 last week. And I would say 90% of my depression is the guilt that I am feeling about being cruel to my mother when I was in my early 20s, and also for speaking poorly about her to family members and other social circles. I try to tell myself that I was just a kid, and did not know how to process whatever was happening.

The reality is that even now, she is at times unspeakably cruel to me. But even then, I cannot forgive myself. The pain is so unbearable that, sometimes suicide seems far better.

If there is one thing I have learned during my 20s, it is that the margin for error in life is small. You will meet people who are in their 30s, 40s, and beyond who made one mistake decades ago and are now paying the price. Or rather than one mistake, it could have been a self-destructive habit that was sustained for several years. In other cases, not a mistake, but a decision made in a knee-jerk reaction where a person is temporarily not in control of their facilities.

The feeling that you described, where it is almost as if the life is just leaving your body. I can relate, but do not know how to fix it.

The only thing is that I found some comfort in Christianity. All I can do is strive to better myself as a person and maybe things will get better.

Imprisoned-radical,

I think most people, myself included, actually got started on a hair loss forum because they were afraid of being left behind in life. That their hair loss would prevent them from finding a woman and thus no family or afraid of social isolation or no career, etc.. understandable actually because this happens to many who lost their hair.

In fact, about 1 1/2 years ago, I personally believe that hair loss is actually caused by and cured by our consciousness. The consiousness got out of sync somewhere. You’ll actually see just about every new member on a hair loss forum has pretty severe anxiety and depression. If you change your consiousness, it’ll put one in a situation where they know exactly what’s causing their hair loss and how to fix it.

I wouldn’t be surprised if hairloss may have come from everything you said. A giant burden and deep problems from cruelty.

I’m sorry to hear everything you said actually. I’m hearing that a lot that family problems caused a giant problem for them in their life that they can’t shake!

Like you, I also did marijuana in high school years. They said it helps with anxiety and all that and it was a coping mechanism. While I was on it, I felt that it helped and recommended it to others But after I got off it, I had big regrets and realized it made me angry and bitter during those years. No more smiling in life. It’s actually constantly having just a tiny smile which allows one to enjoy life more and brush off the negativity of the world. They say marijuana is better than alcohol. But actually, while alcohol is bad, marijuana is probably worse. Causes much more of a problem in the user and society through apathy and such. As you mentioned it leaves one dazed. Not really living in life.


Your absolutely right about the relationship between mother and son being sacred. I can say without a doubt that about a week after my mother passed, while we had the best relationship ever and zero regrets about anything, about 1/3 - 2/3 of myself died. The grief is so bad because a part of you really is dead. Never to come back. It’s like you can see a part of god through your mother. But when your mother passes, all that love a lot of what kept you going is gone. As if you had two hearts but one heart died and has a harder time to compensate.

Their is also an equally sacred relationship between father and daughter. And I’ve heard something similar with some spouses and parents to children.

I really do believe that when you have this kind of connection between someone, that you are finding god within them. But if they pass or something happens, you lose that connection.

While I did prepare, I think I should have spent time loving god and my mother and others at the same time. If you haven’t spent enough time loving god, then when someone very close to you dies, a part of you dies too. It’s hard to describe.

Regarding your mom, what I personally believe is the pressures put on people in society is enormous. Us men it’s very hard on but with women, they aren’t built for these pressures. They can’t brush them aside as easy. Just look at us men. Most of us can work 40 hours a week from 16 - late 60’s in a job we hate to provide for our families and such.

Women on the other hand, not only still have the pressure from other women of being a good loving person, having a good family, being a respectable person, looking pleasant through their life, but now they have the much worse part of now having to work 40 hours a week most of their life now when women were “never” built to do that.

Men were always built to do the heavy lifting while women were better equipped to deal with crying babies and such.

It’s like telling us men that besides all the responsibilities we have to deal with, we now have to deal with crying babies for the rest of our lives. We’d snap and I think that’s what many women have done. Many of them have snapped and taken it out on their children. As Boys we always have a desire to take care of our mother. And as men we have to take care of our spouse and children. When we can’t do that properly for whatever reason we snap. If our kids were taken away in divorce we snap and many kill themselves.

Anyway, sorry to hear about what happened. I thought maybe this would make a little sense for you. To help understand maybe we shouldn’t be so hard on the women in our life. The women have collectively snapped because of the pressures of life. Because the women snapped, us men followed down the rabbit hole.

I can say most women deep down want to be cherished. They want to be loved. Talked to and feel that someone loves them... constantly reassured all the time that they are loved as many women are insecure about that. Especially when they get older. It puts them at ease and takes some of the pressure of life off them. Some women want to be called multiple times a week. Even if it’s just for a couple minutes to say Hi mom. But some women don’t want any of that. Just a thought. If you feel guilty, maybe call your mom a couple times a week just to say Hi.

Zixcreator,

I know exactly what you mean.  That’s what I mean.  But now after whatever I got in April, it’s gone into overdrive where I know I’m dying.  I justhope it doesn’t stop halfway through and I’m stuck like this for a long period.

About 30 years ago or so a man created an instrument and detected frequencies from people and food.  He found that the higher the frequency one had the healthier they would be.  The lower the more susceptible they would be to illness and what frequency those with cancer and such vibrate at and when death starts.  

The point being,  this apathy causes one to be susceptible to illness.  This feeling is actually a symptom of having a low frequency.  The lower the frequency the worse the feeling and eventually one dies with enough time at that low frequency.  

The researcher found the highest frequencies that were found was in aromatherapy.  Rose was the highest in aromatherapy.  Then he found things like coffee had such a low frequency that it can cause illness.  Then he found things like canned food had zero frequency to it.  

I remember posting a study that found mice that ate cereal and only cereal lived like 2 weeks.  Mice that ate the cardboard box lived like 4 weeks.  Meaning all this processed foods out there are not helpful.  

The point being is it’s something other cultures have known in the world.  Most people will die when their frequency gets low.  Even can do the reverse placebo effect where you can wish yourself dead.  After enough years of that you can die.  I knew someone who did that.  The frequency for them was already low enough but he use to say I want to die.  Couple years later he was.  The mind is very powerful that way.

I use to want to do the opposite and was actually training for. What a very small percent do by raising the frequency so high they can die when they want.

The first couple minutes of this video is what i mean regarding a low vibration killing one. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=3NixbuL6Zas

Anyway, sorry to hear you are also going through such a tough time.  I wish life wasn’t like that.  That we can pass awaywhen we are feeling good and full of life.  They say we are like children.  If you study children they run off to play but then when they get tired they suddenly stop everything they are doing and run to their parents and want to rest or sleep.  They will even throw a tantrum because they want to sleep if they are tired.  Us adults are like that in the sense we are born, we run after and play with our desires our lust for the opposite sex, materialism, etc and then when we are done we drop what we are doing, we stop all our desires our cravings our longings and then we want to go back to god.  We want to go back to the next world.  They say it takes 9 months to build that body to leave to the next world but either way, in time we get to the next world when we become like this.  It’s all a symptom before we pass. The feeling is absolutely horrible.

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-53329946

This article caught my attention today.
Turns out some scientists claim that Covid is airborne and asking WHO to change their stance on this.
I mean, I thought WHO was the establishment and working towards fullfilling an agenda. What do you guys think ? Is this is just propaganda ? Are they trying to clear the name of the establishment by implementing new rules to the pandemic via independent scientists instead of WHO ?

Seems like they are trying to further enforce Mask Wearing and extend its mandate. Which makes sense given they are running out of horror stories and can't keep Covid on the headlines for too long, and they just don't want people to ask "Vaccine for what?" when they drop the vaccine late fall or winter. To remind you that you are living in the "new world/pandemic world."

I'm just surprised that this wasn't brought up by CDC, NIH or WHO.

Nuada wrote:https://www.bbc.com/news/world-53329946

This article caught my attention today.
Turns out some scientists claim that Covid is airborne and asking WHO to change their stance on this.
I mean, I thought WHO was the establishment and working towards fullfilling an agenda. What do you guys think ? Is this is just propaganda ? Are they trying to clear the name of the establishment by implementing new rules to the pandemic via independent scientists instead of WHO ?

Seems like they are trying to further enforce Mask Wearing and extend its mandate. Which makes sense given they are running out of horror stories and can't keep Covid on the headlines for too long, and they just don't want people to ask "Vaccine for what?" when they drop the vaccine late fall or winter. To remind you that you are living in the "new world/pandemic world."

I'm just surprised that this wasn't brought up by CDC, NIH or WHO.

In each study or statement by these 3-letter agencies, a careful discernment reveals that there is no evidence of what they state.

"WHO officials have cautioned the evidence is preliminary and requires further assessment."

There has never been a time in history when a so-called virus has ever been a proven via scientific method to be a cause of *any* disease.

One could substitute the word toxin in place of virus, and then we will get something closer to the truth.

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Back to hair (Sorry, C0-Fraud-19) has hijacked our hair topics and some of the research has slowed down too.

During my worst hair periods were always during those pressures described in this thread.  And those pressures were undoubtedly also related to methylation cycles, which essentially means a series of chemical changes that occur in the body, the primary purpose of which is to regulate neurotransmitters, regulate genetic expression, and generate energy-molecules such as ATP, not to mention waste disposal mechanisms.

At least in my case, part of the puzzle was going from uncertain to feeling in control and everything feeling positive from within.

Sorry for this down post but sometimes it’s good to make plans and this is rarely talked about anywhere.  How to have a good death. In the animal kingdom, they will find a good place where they won’t be disturbed while they no longer eat or drink.  

I don’t think this method is suicide for many people if their health causes so much suffering already and if they will pass away anyway as this takes such a tremendous resolve to go through with it.  My health is already gone and don’t think I could take a 3rd wave of this corona or whatever it is as the 2nd was pure agony already.

Dehydration sucks and one starts to drink after 36 hours or take small amounts of water which makes the process more difficult and causes agony.  Way too hard without being heavily medicated.

I’m going to make a dry run on this method to see if this Dr is legit.  Zero water and food but use of products that prevent your mouth from getting dehydrated and drying out. Current protocol everyone uses is consume small amounts of food or water which can cause agony and high pain medication.  However this method is said low pain and peaceful.  Once one passes out, it’s like two days where you stop breathing.  Peaceful.  

Thought somebody would be interested in this method.  See the whole video for info  https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wtD8O_uptt0

I’ll post back to see how long I can go.

Hope this helps

In my experience people just get anorexic and stop eating. I would just drink or eat if I was hungry or thirsty.